Gemini Code-revisited

         I'm going to try the impossible.  I'm about to debate with myself.  Admitedly I am a Gemini.  This makes it easier to be believed by many who know about the signs of the zodiak and how the stars and time in alignment with birthyears and days define to at least a small degree our uniform behavior and definate possibillities of compatible alliances with both male and female potential friends that the depth and longetivity of friendship may be predicted with a form of certitude by those who ascertain to possess this ancient and abstract knowledge.       Gemini, the twins.  My entire life I have heard that since I am a gemini I have two personalities.   People have even gone so far as to say to me that," They understand how hard it must be for me to have to act one way, when I really meant or acted another way at another time"!  So.  Because a particular person needed to understand a behavior that is, was and always will be, beyond their understanding!  Said person using a sign of the zodiak (this time) explained away by falsely defining with a simplistic catch-all, " He's a Gemini "!   Once again escapes even the appearance of a responsible reality.   Before I even begin to debate with myself I must say that if a friend or acquaintance feels that a Gemini has two distinct personalities wouldn't one ask the Gemini which one one was speaking to or with him?   And then, after dislodging one from the other find common ground to base a query or share a joke that would not confuse either party?  I enjoy " the look".  It is kind of an eyebrow raised, tilt of the head, penetrating stare as if to question to the depths of my being? "  Which one are you"?   The good gemini twin?  Or that mischevious, devil may care, prankster from hell, that holds nothing sacred and will say and do whatever it takes to destroy everything I hold hidden and unbidden?   See?  No one ever cares about you when they say, with an all knowing, wise looking, half-assed smile (based in fear ) " Oh!  You are a Gemini "!!           Here is the topic of the debate I am willing to attack and defend.    I know something is true.  I haven't shared with anyone what that something is that is true.  Even though I know that something is true, can prove that that something is true, want to share it, I'm not sure how to go about it.  Here is why.  The #1 reason I can understand this truth is because it was given to me.  One of the many and varied reasons I know its true is because once it opened, it  continually opened and I'm sure will always continually open confirming itself by itself continually!    Here is more of a question than a debate?   Knowing the nature of man, how would I find anyone to share what is true with?   Should I dribble out the thoughts and principles and see who is truly interested and who declares war?   This truth is so unique that spoken in plain english can only be taken wrongly except by someone who understands.   I believe and hope that the truth I'm dancing with at this moment is shared by more than just a few because as it stands at this moment, I only know of one other than myself.  It is a hard thing in this life to even agree on physical things.   The language we speak is already muddied by preconceptions, traditions, wrong definitions,  and opinions.   In order to try and get help getting alcohol off your back you go to A.A.  and can't say God help me out loud..  Proper askance is the "higher power".   That's O.K. with me because you went there for help.   You also realised you couldn't do what needed to be done by yourself!  You needed outside support.    The other ingredient offered is that if you fail you are still vital to the family and welcomed back into the fellowship and support offered there.  The wisdom of AA knows it is the journey that is real.  If it were a destination people wouldn't say Hi, My name is .......  and I am an alcolholic.   They would say Hi, My name is............ and I WAS an alcolholic.    All churchs that I have heard of are of this mind.  I was a sinner.   But they are also of this mind!   I was a sinner but saved by the blood of the lamb.   Salvation to eternal life, grace.   So, saved by Christ crucified, ressurected.  You can tell at AA when one of the brethern comes back beaten.  He comes to the group and is down trodden and filled with remorse.   He, like David, seriously repents.   I wish all churchs of all time and all denominations if just for a brief moment could fit their life into what they profess to have faith in.  There is no fault or blame.   What facinates me is an immaturity or failure to be excited about anything.   Think about this.   Since you call yourself a Christian you are.  Are Mormons?  Are Catholics?  What's a Babtist?  What's a Lutheren?   What's the Church of England?   Jehova Witness?   How does the nation of Israel and the city Jerusalem fit into your idea of the grand scheme of things?  Where is the "Rapture"  in the Bible?   O.K.  break out your Bible that you have allowed your Pastor to decipher for you for Oh so long and start thinking about a word-remnant.   When you read the major and the minor prophets you will continually run across this word-Remnant!   Scan at first.  I wouldn't want you to get bogged down with stuff like 10 tribes north mingling with sojourners.   Once you get a grip on the word REMNANT,  try and figure out the how and why that salvation was given to the Gentiles to drive jews to jelousy.   Then to stir up the kettle, think about how similar churchs of today resemble the churchs of Jesus's day.   Worshiping the symbols that stood for their spiritual counterparts!  Read the book of Amos and see how James speaks of King David's tent tabernackle brought forward into the book of Acts!  Customized!   The line of Judah.   The same line to the father of Faith Abraham.  Wow!   Now this is exciting.   So I guess I spit out a bit.  But I'm a Gemini so blame the other one!  I did!   I hope this makes you angry!   It did!  See?